Saturday, November 10,
the day ralphie boy died
i had a previous posting that i deleted .. i was really upset.. my little bros gone.. he was the last Scott.. i wish i could have known.. i cant beleive no one told me until today.. his girlfriend had to tell me.. how sad..how sad his mom hated my mom so much for being the ex wife. that i had to suffer in the end.... i still cant even imagine her pain.. not even for a second...but the pain of not saying goodbye to my baby brother is something i cant even begin to tell u...i didnt get to say goodbye.., but i did tell him how much i loved him before he passed.....and i am grateful for that.... i just wish i could have known when it happened.. its like i didnt even matter to his mom.. like i dont even exist to her.. i guess i never did.. im so sorry,..i feel lke whatever happend between my mom and her is there deal.. but dude.. comeon" he was my brother...... i am blessed and he was blessed to have such a wonderful girlfriend to have told me when she did.... sometimes i sware i hate people... fuck!!! i just dont know why this happened.. he was 22 years old.. :( First my twin sister died now my brother..what the hell is going on..
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