Thursday, August 28,
me
9:38 PM
Alarm
I realized last night how fast everything can b taken from u, and really the only people u can really truly count on is your family. When shit hits the fan its the only thing that will hold u as your crutch. No amount of alcohol or ciggs or band aids can heal me from this pain.
I feel like I have been slapped with the biggest wake up call I have ever experienced. How I mock the other psychos out there but yet I am one...just in sheeps clothing. I'm weak, weaker then I have ever been, these legs can't hold me up. I'm lucky I have Linkyn to smile at me to let me know it will b allright and pain will go away soon. My eyes are swollen from crying all night. My body exhausted, my poor unborn child has felt the wrath of all this stress. How dare I bring this child into this world feeling like this. I am not as blessed as I thought I was, but when I look in my childs baby blue eyes I know I am strong and will make it through this.
I just want life to return as it once was....I want to drive on the wet streets of seattle on my way to my old job with my friends all at home....I want life to b as it once was, god just anything to take this hurt away....I want to smile and not be on the verge of tears...I want to b happy.....I want to go back n time and wake up from this terrible dream....cuz that's where I'm at in a nightmare...and the dam alarm won't go off....
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6:18 AM
